I am amazed that it has taken over a year since I wrote my last post. I know that I have struggled this last year with so many new self worth issues. It is amazing what Satan will do to your mind to make you feel less of a person. In the last 2 months I have really worked hard at my personal relationships with God and my family. It took some wonderful friends of my to convince me that I truly deserved what I was given, and I would be blessed with more if I had a personal relationship with God. One of my main hurdles has been Gratitude. Am I thankful for what I have, who I am, and where I'm going? Well of course I am but until I verbalized it, it didn't seem that I really meant it. So the process began and my process was simple PRAYER! Wow something we have been taught to do as little children, I was not doing. As soon as I opened the line of communication with my Father in Heaven, it was like all my issues weren't issues. I'm not saying it fixed everything, but it definitely gave me a different perspective of what my life was all about, where I wanted to go, and how I was going to do it. It gave me focus!!